ADVENT || DAY 17 || I AM MY NAMES
“I am my names. Defined by my distress, my failures, my doubts.
From playground jeers to work-force triumphs.
I am late.
I am dumb.
I am funny.
I am smart.
I am, my names.
So I went for a walk, and I named my names.
All the things I’ve been or wanted to be.
Definitions, of who I am and where I’ve fallen short.
Names, names, names.
Holding me back.
But there in that place, in spite of myself I spoke another name, and it was a name that waged war for me in that morning light, it raged against my self-pity and self-reliance and somehow the stone of all my fear and failure cracked under it’s Glorious Weight…It rolled from my tongue and into my spirit and rose like life in my lungs. It was the name of a wonderful counselor, a mighty God, an everlasting Father and a prince of peace. The name above all names. Jesus. As I stood on that mountain I could sense that something had changed.
I am not my names.
I am His.